Strong Enough

There are times when I feel as if diabetes is consuming me. Like it's sucking the very breath out of me. I feel as if no one really gets it. It's like waking up every single day to fight the same battle that you battled all day. Some days we win, some days we don't. We don't get off days, or sick days. No vacation or holiday stands in it's way.

At first, I had my fair share of days where I HATED diabetes. It so easy to feel that way, to let it get the best of you. But on one of those days, as I sat there thinking those dark thoughts it hit me. If I hate diabetes, then in some twisted way, I hate a part of Hynlee. That was all it took for me to change my way of thinking. NO, I don't like it. And yes, I wish with every being in my body there was a cure. But, I can't hate it. If I let hate into my heart, it can only go down from here. Diabetes doesn't have Hynlee, Hynlee has diabetes. And I repeat the verse, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. OVER AND OVER.

There are NO words to describe Hynlee's courage, her strength. She amazes me everyday. I made the comment to Derick a few weeks ago, I'm only as strong as she is. If she breaks down, so do I. But that's not true. She is far stronger than me. Maybe I'm carrying the burden for the both of us. And if that's the case, it's a burden I will gladly carry for her.

The prayers are what have carried us this far. Trust me, there are moments when all I can do is cry happy, blessed tears. Moments when I can feel those prayers said for my baby girl.

I'm leaving you with my new theme song. I promise you I play this 987,563,789 times a day...at least!!



Strong Enough

Matthew West

You must

You must think I'm strong

To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me

Forgive me if I'm wrong

But this looks like more than I can do

On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be

everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not stong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

For the both of us

Well, maybe

Maybe that's the point

To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally

Finally at rock bottom

Well, that's when I start looking up

And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be

Everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not stong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing

But I'm still holding on to the one thing

You are God
and you are strong

When I am weak

I can do all things

Through Christ who gives me strength

And I don't have to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

I can do all things

Through Christ who gives me strength

And I don't have to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

Oh, yeah

I know I'm not strong enough to be

Everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not stong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough
Strong enough